Confession Session: Sometimes I Worry

Actually its a lot of the time. I focus so much on the future and all the things I can't control.

It makes me sick.

I get so worried I spend countless hours running through scenarios in my mind and all of them are bad.

Death. Dismemberment. Confusion. Chaos. Broken Hearts.

The worst.

Lately I've been worrying. A LOT. My whole life seems centered on two worries. My future and the step right in front of me. I have ideas of how I would like the future to look. What I will do when I'm married. What I will do when I have kids. What I will do if I don't. Plans are good! Lol

The steps right in front of me I over think. Am I doing the right thing? Is this the will of God for my life? Is this a good life choice? Is this too slow? Too fast?

I'm worrying myself into a dark corner of my mind that just wants to give up. Hide forever and hope that the big decisions and life plans won't find me.

Sigh.

Today I remembered something.

Jesus is still with me.

Jesus still loves me.

Jesus is still in control of my life.

Jesus knows what I will like. (Because he knows me)

Jesus will hold me.

Jesus just wants me to be still.

And its all going to be okay. Sigh every hypothetical scenario is going to be okay. I'm going to be okay.