Rant/Spoken Word?/I have a lot of feelings tonight

I have the tendency to see the world as a beautiful place, full of beautiful people who all love each other.

But they don't.

Actually the world is a place full of hate and malice. A place so rotted by greed and lust that we can't even trust the people who lead us. Its a shell of what it used to be. An empty skeleton, a shadow of the place its supposed to be.

And so are we.

Created by a God to love and serve him. Given everything and denied only one thing and yet we had to have it. Had to have the poison that would slowly rid the earth of all things good, all things right, all things worth having. The poison of sin. So selfish and full of lust that what we desire changed from him to everything else that is not worth our notice. And yet we act like we've won some great prize when the greatest prize has slipped through our grasp.

No the world is no longer beautiful.

Then came man not bound to sin like us. That's why we hated him. That's why we despised his name. That's why he had to go. He constantly reminded us of how far we had fallen of how low we have gone. With such a reminder in front of our eyes how could we continue to believe the lies? The lies that sin is okay. The lie that its alright if I do it in secret. The lie that says just say your sorry to make it better. No. He couldn't stay. So we killed him. Dead on a tree. Three nails in his hands in his feet. Broken and bleeding left there to rot. Did we then see our wrong?

No. The world is not a beautiful place.

But then in glorious victory he rose again. Over sin and death he has conquered. And it is then in the light of all his glory that we come crawling to him. Trying to brush off some of his goodness. Some of his kindness and love. We attach ourselves to him for selfish purposes and he doesn't say a word.

Then like that he changes us.

Suddenly we see our wretched state in light of who he is. We see the depravity of the world and we are disgusted by it. No longer dark enough to belong in it but not clean enough to belong to him. So where for we fit? No where. That's when he reminds us that he loved us at our darkest. That he saw it all before we came and accepted us. Who am I that my Lord would bestow such grace?

Nothing.

But when I view the world through him.... He shows me that it is truly a beautiful place. Because he says "These are the people I created." He can't look away because to him it is the most beautiful place full of his children and people that he loves. And because he sees them its enough. Its enough to keep him from destroying the world like in the days of Noah.

I want to see what you see Jesus. I want to see these people that you love. Even the ones who are walking away from you. I wants to show them your love. Give me grace to forgive and mercy to forget. Give me your love. Jesus I can't do this without you. I can't even try to begin. So will you be my hands and feet and make me clean within. Will you purify this heart of mine and cleanse every part of me. Make me different Lord please? So I can see this beautiful world that you see.