Mistakes = Failure Forever

For the last couple of weeks I have been working on the STAND Retreat. This is going to be a fun three day event for all our 2014 CYIA Alumni. I have been putting together cabin assignments, small groups, planning group games and activities for them to take part in. It has been all consuming for the last couple of weeks!

That all being said, this is my very first time doing something like this. I have never, ever before put together a retreat schedule or had to confirm dates and take the lead on everything. Needless to say I am very nervous about this, because I want everything to go perfectly! I want the students to have a good time and for them to be rewarded for working so hard this summer!

Today I realized a mistake that I made in the planning. As I was trying to trace the tornado back to it's origin, my face continued to heat up with embarrassment and then fear. Because of my simple mistake, I made our ministry loose two hundred dollars. #thebiggestfaceplamintheworld #youhadonejob

Tears threatened to come out when I had to tell Mr. Chuck and he simply sighed and said "I guess you will have to learn to be more careful." My mind screamed at me telling me that I was a failure at life. My thoughts tomented me by bringing back all the times I had made mistakes. My emotions give me this equation: mistakes = FAILURE FOREVER. I just wanted to lay my head on the desk and not get up. Or crawl under and stay there forever.

I tried so hard, to make everything for this retreat so nice, so perfect and I still messed up. And guess what? I will continue to make mistakes. I will continue to mess things up. But the good thing is I have a God who never makes mistakes and He did not make a mistake when he put me in this job. With His help I know that this retreat can be a great thing for the teens. I just need His help! He is teaching me and I am learning and next time I won't do the same thing again. Mistakes don't mean that I am going to fail forever (even though it feels that way) it just means that I have more to work on.

So I guess all of that was to say:

I trust you God, even when I make mistakes. Please help!