Roller Coaster of emotions

Yesterday was a really good day - it was filled with praising Jesus, listening to his word almost all day, getting loads of things I need to do done - it was a good day. But I feel like someone who has just crashed from an emotional high. It isn't fun. Even though I am like this:

Jesus is the same.

Yesterday, today and forever he is steady. I hate that I am so changeable, I hate that I just flow whichever way the wind blows me. But this is what he is saying to me:

"It's okay - it's okay not to be okay, Charissa."

Really? Is it really okay?

Yes - do you want to know why?

Psalms 34:17-22

Is anyone crying for help? God is listening ready to rescue you.

If your heart is broken, you'll find God right there; if you're kicked in the gut, he'll help you catch your breath.

Disciples so often get into trouble; still, God is there every time.

He's your bodyguard, shielding every bone; not even a finger gets broken.

The wicked commit slow suicide; they waste their lives hating the good.

God pays for each slave's freedom; no one who runs to him loses out. 

I feel kicked in the gut. Like all the wind from a really good day has been completely depleted. But God is right here in the midst of it and he is going to help me catch my breath. I get into trouble - but God is there every time. He protects me, upholds me. He has paid for my freedom and when I come to him I won't be disappointed. Sigh..... Oh God how I need you. Hear my cry and rescue me!