Acting like the WORST Christian ever....
I am sitting in a corner of Barns and Noble with a horrible attitude. I just thought I would be completely honest and tell you that the last couple of hours have been really terrible. Let's start at the beginning of all the badness.
I was in church being terribly distracted by people next to me and in front of me.
I brushed it off.
No big deal - I only listened to about half of what Pastor had to say but that's alright.... I can just soak it in next Sunday. Then because my house doesn't have WiFi I decided to go to Dunkin Donuts. They have Wifi and delicious sweet tea! Win, win!
Sweet tea :)
Wifi :(
It didn't work. My computer tried to hook up for at least thirty minutes before I decided to give up and leave the store. I get to my car throw my backpack and purse into the car, slip my key into the ignition and.....
It won't turn.
Not only will it not turn - no matter how I flip it press pull - it will not budge. I am losing my mind at this point and angry furstrated tears are coming out of my eyes. I start praying but it is full of bitterness and anger at everything. I throw my keys in frustration - and it is about twenty minutes in the blazing hot Florida air before I call my mother. My first words are strained by tears and anger as I explain what has happened. She doesn't know what to so or what to say. Then I realize that my steering wheel is locked which is why I can't turn the key. This makes me angry at myself.
So basically I acted like the worst Christian ever. Yay me! Sigh. I'm not at all proud of my display outside of Dunkin Donuts and I would have been super embarrassed if someone I knew was to pull into the spot next to me.
Why is it when things go wrong we immediately turn to our old nature - how we used to act or behave before knowing Jesus as Savior? I have sworn off that girl. I don't want her to define me anymore and yet I struggle keeping her in check. Blah!! I don't like this at all....
I have no idea why I decided to write about this. I guess it's just to let everyone who reads it know that I'm not perfect. I'm no where near perfect but God still loves me. That's super comforting. Sigh.
I was in church being terribly distracted by people next to me and in front of me.
I brushed it off.
No big deal - I only listened to about half of what Pastor had to say but that's alright.... I can just soak it in next Sunday. Then because my house doesn't have WiFi I decided to go to Dunkin Donuts. They have Wifi and delicious sweet tea! Win, win!
Sweet tea :)
Wifi :(
It didn't work. My computer tried to hook up for at least thirty minutes before I decided to give up and leave the store. I get to my car throw my backpack and purse into the car, slip my key into the ignition and.....
It won't turn.
Not only will it not turn - no matter how I flip it press pull - it will not budge. I am losing my mind at this point and angry furstrated tears are coming out of my eyes. I start praying but it is full of bitterness and anger at everything. I throw my keys in frustration - and it is about twenty minutes in the blazing hot Florida air before I call my mother. My first words are strained by tears and anger as I explain what has happened. She doesn't know what to so or what to say. Then I realize that my steering wheel is locked which is why I can't turn the key. This makes me angry at myself.
So basically I acted like the worst Christian ever. Yay me! Sigh. I'm not at all proud of my display outside of Dunkin Donuts and I would have been super embarrassed if someone I knew was to pull into the spot next to me.
Why is it when things go wrong we immediately turn to our old nature - how we used to act or behave before knowing Jesus as Savior? I have sworn off that girl. I don't want her to define me anymore and yet I struggle keeping her in check. Blah!! I don't like this at all....
I have no idea why I decided to write about this. I guess it's just to let everyone who reads it know that I'm not perfect. I'm no where near perfect but God still loves me. That's super comforting. Sigh.
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